A description of my thoughts on self delusion, losing myself then doing everything possible to recover myself.
From childhood trauma that led me to drug and alcohol abuse, reckless sex borne out of teenage heartbreaks to wild experiments in sorcery and witchery that morphed into psychosis that took too much to reverse.
Sandwiched in between is the unending desire to change the world from effects of colonialism, the corrupt governments to toxic parents only to discover I was the problem all along.